Yesterday was a heavy day for me mentally. I found myself trapped in this quest for answers, wanting to know what move to take and what will happen next. I felt paralyzed with the fear of the unknown and unable to engage in “real life”. Perhaps this was triggered by recent events?
Before I went to bed, I decided that I was going to let it all go and that tomorrow I would not search for answers – I would just be present. That night, I had a dream I was looking at two roads trying to decide which one to take. The first was a dimly lit, winding dirt road lined with trees; the other a bright, open, straight road to the top. I wanted to take the winding road but faced some resistance from loved ones. Trusting my own intuition, I choose to take the winding road. After what seemed like no time at all, I was at the end of the winding road feeling accomplished. I woke up rested and felt much better mentally.
The dream reinforced for me that even though I am embarking on what appears to be the more difficult path, I will get through it quickly and with a greater sense of satisfaction. Making the tough decisions to leave the safe path of a traditional job and schooling has not been easy, but I know it will be worth it.
Guiding thought of the day: *I know I will get there, I’m just not exactly sure how.*